another longgggggg-ass backlog

afterwhich i need to start mugging for midterms lmfao im cooked (atp im j gg off my calendar and hoping my memory hasnt faded too much)

29th Aug: oh yea its another thursday but theres no softball boooooo. met with the IS secondary school group for dinner (after just slacking at home watching league again lmfao). then the sobering realisation that 'oh shit everyone is attached' yikes HAHAH but its great to see old frens again yey

30th Aug: still have not class parted in my shipping biz class...i think 5% means i j stfu and nua thru class cuz honestly its so dry HAHAH im like also kinda unmotivated this sem to study (in general) and i guess at this point the panic hadnt set in yet since its only week 2 hmm...and yes they moved softball to fri morning what the fuck now i cant go naurrr...

then met with some of the co freshies and honestly wtf theres so much iw to say...like first theres so few freshies who came for the camp; second so many ppl (read 75% of ppl) needed to leave aft dinner so they didnt stay back to play amazing race; third the vp decided to impromptu charades because she 'was feeling it' and decided not to use the original set of words that they came up with during one of the meetings AND the new words were so bad like wtf is 'fish fishing in tokyo' or 'tables with chairs' for CHARADES bruh sweet lord i- say less.

then went to this ops mgmt night to listen to what some industry professionals had to say about supply chain challenges and potentials in the near future which was q interesting. met a few y2s there (who were mentees of my batchmate aka my intern friend lmao) and yea i didnt even know that was a thing lmao maybe i shouldnt have focused so much on sports/arts cca in my first two years eh..

31st Aug: went for softball. and i swear i either need to wear contacts or bring a towel because when my face sweats, my specs will slip down my nose so if i run it bounces and i get so fking disoriented i cant see where the ball is. so in the end i caught one but i knew it was kinda lucky and the second one went in, came out, i got the rebound, didnt close my glove, and fell out again. sitter. but they got the opponent struck out the next batter anyways so no matter i think only one run went in and we still wouldnt have won anyway so not that bad ig...but need to make mental note BRING A TOWEL

also it was like 2 weeks to OA and wtf its so stress bruh i thought my limit was 16th notes at 110bpm i think it might lowkey be 100bpm now wtf HAVE I REGRESSED THAT MUCH ccb

oh yea and ofc man utd lost fuck

1st Sep: went to the bird park! also sidenote before i dive into that: so happy the c9 league 'superteam' lost hah. anyways bird park at mandai with the rest of the other animal attractions feels..weird? idk there were some new things i think and new exhibits (especially the penguins i dont remember them being in such a big enclosure before) and i think there was also the new australian animals segment. BUT THEY REMOVED MY TOUCANS AND THE WALL OF FAME NOOOOO. now the toucans can only be seen at the live show demonstration sighs....but yea dragged the wingstop cult to hot hideout which they all SOMEHOW NEVER EVEN HEARD OF BEFORE like bruh its goated man idek atp what kinda rock they living under...but yea vv interesting yapping session but omg it was so hot throughout the day damn at least it didnt rain tho

2nd Sep: skip nth impt

3rd Sep: honestly there is this kinda cute (introvert?) girl in one of my classes that i managed to group with (cuz my prof rng for the first 3 weeks) again for like the second time. and i mean she's nice but idk why i just didn't ask if she wanted to join my other two frens in the same proj grp cuz we had an extra space welp...i will never stop bottling it i swear to...whatever is above

4th Sep: again logs and transport mgmt (ltm) prof fks w our head w the data analytics part of the module but at least its open book midterm (meaning it will also be tricky) and the curve gna be steep. but i guess what made the day better was that i finally managed to meet the horsemen for dinner (again) yay and tea was spilled (which had been brewing but no one wanted to spill bcuz of circumstances that i shall BE PICKY ABOUT REVEALING) and i guess it was a huge weight off our shoulders? i still dk what finally broke the dam but yea glad for that person to finally say it

5th Sep: ate lunch with the wingstop girls (but lunch was japanese curry not wingstop lmao the irony) and just yapped about stuff and gossiped again...sometimes though i do wish that softball was on thursday's instead of friday's so that i cld attend training HAHAH sighs but wishful thinking ig

6th Sep: went for the mbot networking night (so fk co and fk oa performance amirite) and met some batchmates, seniors (including graduates) and talked about what mbot was. i think it was actly quite eye-opening bcuz mbot is such a small course (like 20 ppl or less per batch) and unless u astronomically fk up ur credit score and aura it is almost impossible to not get a job in the industry bcuz of the high demand but low supply. and the people there really...opened my eyes more to the inefficiencies and potential underhand dealings in ANY industry - cash "management" (interpret this how you will), smuggling goods from A to B to C, and also how old horses will never change their ways because they have been galloping successfully for so long that there is no push to get them to change with all the comfort that they currently experience

7th Sep: classic saturday morning softball and saturday afternoon co. but i swear im getting sick of co at this point like...man the things im getting out of this is nuanced but idk i just cant bring myself to learn more about it when there are people who dont even come for practice. like whats the point man...but i think i find some healing in softball in the sense that i think im abit more willing to be unhinged now in softball (maybe its bcoz now im like an upperclassman alr) and the juniors are (as usual) really nice people and something about them this year compared to my batch or the direct junior batch just seems so surreal and healing (maybe its that they open up quite fast? or that they are quite funny as a whole?) or maybe it is because i am more willing to be unshackled so...i just feel unburdened with how i am supposed to be? oh but the rain sucks LOL match got called off early so...

8th Sep: rot at home match got postponed to the day of oa performance what the FUCK im so sad cuz they couldnt get enuf players today so like...wlao eh. also did the last part of the first case write up for sust ops (again i need to reiterate this group is kinda goated the vibes r great)

9th Sep: the IS gang is back (again!) finally got to touch mahjong tiles again (and opened my house again since the unfortunate FO incident) after so long and yay got some bank HAHAH. also played basketball with them too and damn i am so unfit jeez i keep saying i need to go to the gym but i actly need to start running or smth to get my fitness back

10th Sep: ngl this service process got me abit confused cos i think the slides were (at least imho) abit messy? maybe its just me but i haven't reviewed it so yea it might just be i need to read through the lesson slides again and the textbook also. and omg this sust ops group man..we fking yap on tele after the case discussion and never listen to prof at all in class HAHAHA omg we are SO BAD istg..

11th Sep: softball finally back at mpsh! and wow they bought so many new balls i almost feel offended that they did so when the balls bought before my term havent even been fully opened HAHAHA wtf man why the budget so high one

12th Sep: rot at home. thursdays are so chill yay!

13th Sep: (from this point on, i am writing writhing in pain in this terrible infection - so idk how well i can phrase my thoughts tgt). i think that OA is a pain in the ass..and wrist. like idk i really am embracing the spirit of live laugh lanjiao because i think that it is just difficult to play the piece well....i mean i guess i finally got the groove of the fast part because it is just repetitive notes but for some reason i cannot play 105bpm with a melody in the notes. ugh its so annoying

14th Sep: i was supposed to go for softball, but it was raining so heavily in the morning i slept in even though i confirmed with the exco that the game was on...and i didn't go and the rain did ease enough at around 930-10 for the game to continue HAHAHA but anyways i had to go back to school for smuco prac again after....i swear going to school sweaty is not it bruv..anyways just prac and then...

15th Sep: oh boy this was one messy day. FIRST, the mic check they gave us so little time because the other acts before us used up a lot of time. SECOND, they seemed kinda rude about it? idk. WORST OF ALL, during the actual performance, oh my god the cling-clang of the cutlery against tableware was so bad i could barely hear anyone two chairs away from me. so when it came to the ending, everyone on my right was in beat, but everyone on my left could not hear the right side so they were a beat late. and anyways if u were anywhere in the back 2/3s u cld barely hear the performance (if at all) anyways. but the ending was so jarring i was so confused like wait why are there two different rhythms. like, COMPLETELY DIFFERENT??? and i just made the pose but i didnt play any sound (neither did a few other people including the flautists). but apparently ya the mic was not on? idk tho if i can hear myself over the recording means the mic was probably okay? or at least for the front row. sighs what a mess. not our problem! they so messy that the MC didnt even know we ended but 

thats why i say live laugh lanjiao. u give this kind of situation just live, just laugh, just lanjiao yolo ur way through it. just embrace the moment, enjoy it, smile through it, dont be bothered by how badly u do or what bad opinions people form about u. because they dont know what youve been through. very nice

16th Sep: went back to school for some random talk by sgag xiaoming and irene ang and some rando dude. met the osl head (and i get why ppl say they dl him he does give off arsehole vibes?) and also wow the two speakers there were q insightful ngl. but yea fun opportunity just meeting a few familiar faces (and realising how someone's AHEM POOKIE was absent because she was chiong-ing assignment...HAHAHAHAH man she is so fucking dense i cant even begin to comprehend. it is startling that she could get into the next acf mc and she will get credit for her current role in acf csp and she will get credit for being vp of smuco when she barely did any work)

(skip 17th-19th i no mood cover it this stomach cramps are terrible) 

20th Sep: omg this whole day was just building up to lany concert. i have never, ever felt such a cool vibe from the audience before. lauv's audience was ass ngl, taylor's was just screaming crying perfect storms (for half, the other half were npc's but nvm 27k ppl loud enuf), bruno mars was kinda vibey with a lot of interaction, but lany (or specifically paul) was just dancing up and down the stage and just switching between the keyboard and pure vocals?) i mean i will admit i am straight up not the biggest lany fan so i didnt even know the chorus to some songs (especially the older ones from their debut album or malibu nights) but the vocals were CLEAN throughout and the mix with the backing live-band behind was so welldone. 

and omg benjamin kheng singing out of my league with him??? wtfuck man BRUH i was so confused when i heard the credits i was like 'thats ben kheng? wtf no way' then i heard it again and i still couldnt believe cuz man tied his hair in a small ponytail or smth AWTFF HAHAHA then i had to check thru his ig later to confirm that it was indeed ben kheng. HELP. 

but at least andrew is a good concert buddy (omg my legs died with his wtf was the 3.5hrs of standing bruh) man is a fking lany diehard i swear he lost his voice (and he said he would try not to) im kinda happy i convinced him to go standing cuz i think he enjoyed being this close (like, 20m) from paul at some points and i think he loved it. and i wasnt even that ecstatic to go lany cuz im not their biggest fan (by a light year) but hey its a good concert and their set list was kinda happy (i only really know the sad songs well) but it was a good ride through the night

21st Sep: literally nothing happened

22nd Sep: SO THIS IS THE DAY WHERE I GOT THIS....infection? idk what the fk it is it could be the macdonalds scrambled egg bfast burger or my udon lunch cuz i accidentally touched ICE with my dirty hands that werent washed and put it in my drink but i thought it was just two ice cubes so....irdk man maybe it was the eggs fr..tbf i did feel very full very quickly so i kinda felt smth was off (its not like the burger itself is very filling). 

but anyways this wasnt that bad yet, cuz the infection took its time to run rampage in my body. i could still play softball, cheer (have a chronic cough though i swear its like tekong all over again) and also just try to be positive and a ball of energy because the only time i got to play was when i asked my captain 'eh u put this guy that came 2h late but me leh' hHAHAHAHh i mean real though wtf i bring whiteboard for exco to write score, they used for the first three matches then gave up (at least it didnt break), then i dont get playing time? abit fucked ngl next time i should just alpha 'when do i get to play' especially when its (second) last inning and the lead is over 5 runs hahhahhaha. not like it was the eliminator/lower bracket or the final. 

yea but idk the softball freshies again give off soft vibes. LIKE i swear they are introverted but full of fun vibes if u get to crack them open. so nice

(okay 23rd onwards in next post this is too much)

- steve, still on day 6 of gastroenteritis or whatever the fuck this is (stomach bug/flu, food poisoning yada yada)