Diary of an NPC (Needy Poor Creature)

i don't know why i did not go for baseball on the first sunday of february because so much funny shit happened...and they all got caught on tape doing unspeakable things on the field god i wish i was there to see it in person but let me just recap what happened in february:  - finally meeting my capstone client because the first 3 weeks were just goofing around and then we realised that his brand image and goals do not exactly align with the way his instagram and tiktok and website are presented...every subsequent after that was basically just another round of lessons and brainstorming and i really came and grew to love my capstone group more because they are really such nice and sweet people and funny asf too...like they just say the most unhinged stuff sometimes and i really love them (though i think that my honesty of openly admitting that i really enjoy their company did come off as performative at the start but im the kind of person that doesn't lie about these kinda thing...

monday: phlegm has been horrible (and i can say that throughout the week it has remained bad). like at this point it has moved on from being an illness to just me having a nasal backdrip. and idk if it is because it is a humid tropical country but i seem to only get it in singapore - in the netherlands i realised i never had this and omg i really want THAT. anyways my dinner ended up being macdonalds on monday because i was out of time to get food in between my class and the class im a teaching assistant for. and my prof (for the one im the assistant) wanted to reschedule class (as per the school guideline) onto saturday 14th feb at 7pm. for very obvious reasons that was never gonna work out and i think even though i suggested to him that we should move it to an earlier part in the day since the lessons from before 3.30 on the actual monday with classes are not cancelled, he relented and said he will upload videos (which, because he didn't know how recordings work, had him picking ...

i feel like this sem is going to revolve a lot around empathy. in part because my final year project literally has my prof going 'feel alive, and empathise' every week, but also because of circumstances that are revolving around me that make me have to really try to empathise with someone. and i think there are so many different ways to empathise that there isn't a one size fits all solution because it really depends on the context. ideally u want to be a mix of the different areas (kinda like a jack of all trades) but realistically u r better in one area than another (for example, being emotionally connected vs being a good listener). but that's the beauty of character arc story development isn't it? life is just a massive role-playing game where we find different ways to improve and different things to explore. and i think that's what makes life worth living and enjoying!  monday (19th feb): its funny because this was the first monday that i went to school bec...

change. so much change. humid sticky weather. so many good bubble tea options. food that is so much cheaper. friends that i have missed for 5 months i won't dive into exchange here because i'm still saving a series of recaps for that here (and on the spam) but i think that in the first week back here there have been a handful of moments that i have come to realise that i really miss the people on exchange. not only because i really cherish the 20 weeks with them, and that i feel like i grew very close to many of them, but its also that u never know when u r going to see them again. at least when i went on exchange i wasn't so sad because i knew i would be back in singapore in january. but i didn't expect to grow so close to so many people and i feel like there is such a big part of my life now dedicated to the people i met and the experiences i went through on exchange. and so yes, there have been nights where i have been lying in bed reminiscing everything, from 18 aug...

summer really passed by like a whirlwind. obviously, the last 9 weeks of intern haven't been updated here (oops) but i felt like because everyday was similar repeated trends, there really was no point in updating it? i mean obviously i do meet up with people for lunch and dinner afterwards, and we end up talking about life or work or random things, but again yeah maybe i shouldnt be committing to a fixed schedule for updates about work next time HAHAHA anyways...i feel like i really took a lot of learnings from this internship. aside from the fact that i already know office politics exist before entering the company, i feel like everything else just built upon what i learned in school. and i think the added complexity of supply chains now makes every single gear in the transportation sector ever more vital. it might be mundane on some days, or at certain points of the day, but i think truthfully i can see the value of doing the work that i did. of course it is minor compared to wha...