Diary of an NPC (Needy Poor Creature)

i feel like this sem is going to revolve a lot around empathy. in part because my final year project literally has my prof going 'feel alive, and empathise' every week, but also because of circumstances that are revolving around me that make me have to really try to empathise with someone. and i think there are so many different ways to empathise that there isn't a one size fits all solution because it really depends on the context. ideally u want to be a mix of the different areas (kinda like a jack of all trades) but realistically u r better in one area than another (for example, being emotionally connected vs being a good listener). but that's the beauty of character arc story development isn't it? life is just a massive role-playing game where we find different ways to improve and different things to explore. and i think that's what makes life worth living and enjoying!  monday (19th feb): its funny because this was the first monday that i went to school bec...

change. so much change. humid sticky weather. so many good bubble tea options. food that is so much cheaper. friends that i have missed for 5 months i won't dive into exchange here because i'm still saving a series of recaps for that here (and on the spam) but i think that in the first week back here there have been a handful of moments that i have come to realise that i really miss the people on exchange. not only because i really cherish the 20 weeks with them, and that i feel like i grew very close to many of them, but its also that u never know when u r going to see them again. at least when i went on exchange i wasn't so sad because i knew i would be back in singapore in january. but i didn't expect to grow so close to so many people and i feel like there is such a big part of my life now dedicated to the people i met and the experiences i went through on exchange. and so yes, there have been nights where i have been lying in bed reminiscing everything, from 18 aug...

summer really passed by like a whirlwind. obviously, the last 9 weeks of intern haven't been updated here (oops) but i felt like because everyday was similar repeated trends, there really was no point in updating it? i mean obviously i do meet up with people for lunch and dinner afterwards, and we end up talking about life or work or random things, but again yeah maybe i shouldnt be committing to a fixed schedule for updates about work next time HAHAHA anyways...i feel like i really took a lot of learnings from this internship. aside from the fact that i already know office politics exist before entering the company, i feel like everything else just built upon what i learned in school. and i think the added complexity of supply chains now makes every single gear in the transportation sector ever more vital. it might be mundane on some days, or at certain points of the day, but i think truthfully i can see the value of doing the work that i did. of course it is minor compared to wha...

something a lil different today... one thing i realised a lot over the first half of this year is that u cannot take anything for granted. and perhaps this is something that is widely known? but in the comfort of someone/something, sometimes that knowledge just recesses itself in the subconscience. and i feel that in those moments, u start to take something as a given. its not really about discrediting a thing's meaning or value, but rather just thinking that it will always be there but life is short. one blink and suddenly u r 35. one skip on spotify and suddenly u realise 40mins instead of 4mins have passed. u realise that the leaves have fallen after a week of passing by the same spot on the bus, but u arent really sure when it fell. was it yesterday? or the day before? or right after u first saw that tree and took it for granted that it would always be there?  every dinner starts to feel like a chore. every moment at work starts to feel like a burden. every interaction feels so...

2.5 weeks of internship done! my impression overall is that generally people here get the work done, r a lot more unhinged, and also i learn more than what i did previously at goodyear (although the office a bit small sia shag).  definitely there have been many funny moments. in no particular order: they drink milk tea everyday; there is this guy who thinks that u can control what lung takes the impact of the vape/cigarette (i fucking died at this); dirty talk everyday without fail; constant teasing about what other ppl do; shit-talking the previous intern because he was really unaware of surroundings and awkward and gave the bare minimum in the job; gossip about how useless the frontline offices in each country we have a connection with are kinda useless (only SOME offices most r okay); my ceo picks up trash that can be recycled from our individual bins every morning; one coworker came in absolutely hungover on friday morning an hour late for work and his breath still smelled of a...