okay this was just a two day hiatus haha....oops

-
idk what to write in the intro here...oh wait that's because i completely blocked out school starting in less than 24 hours jeez....

Q72: what pain do I wish I never felt? 

i mean this is quite kiddish, but yknow how there's those rest stops along the highways in malaysia? yea there was this one time when i was in preschool and my parents were driving up to visit my aunts (the tradition till today), and I was running the slope at one of the rest stops when i fell and scraped my knee. there was a decent amount of bleeding and it was also somewhat painful but it stopped after a while (and after a bit of crying)

BUT, one of my aunts heard about it and decided, in her home, to apply dettol to the wound (which was still fresh cos it was on the same day or the day after if im not wrong) and omg alcohol on an open wound is so effective but one of the most agonising pains i've ever gotten. i still remember shrieking and i swear my mom was laughing (with my cousin) and my aunt was like SAYING IN THE MOST NONCHALANT VOICE: "you'll be fine"

oh i was not fine. i cried and shrieked and screamed and said i wanted to send my aunt to a faraway jail (like alcatraz island) but yea the point is hell that WAS painful (and yes the scar on my left knee is still there but it is barely visible now)

Q73: what is my biggest fear? 

dying and cockroaches. like i havent seen a cockroach fly recently but damn i do NOT want that to happen. 

as for dying, i've just been afraid of not being able to wake up since young. and i guess now that i'm older i realise that it is also possibly due to the fact that i may not have accomplished everything that i wanted to, and also not got a chance to say goodbye to everyone that matters to me. and i think that scares me because one moment u may be alive, and the next u may just randomly get assassinated like jfk (ok obviously not everyone is that prominent but ig random terrorist attacks r on the rise so there is the possibility u r caught in a knifing or shooting and u go to hospital or worse, die on the spot). 

but ngl i am quite curious about what lies beyond death. like maybe after i die, this soul that is running this body right now retires and is absorbed by some bigger soul which is also under my control in another dimension, but im not aware of it now because i am 'severed' from it (like in the tv series severance). and that bigger soul has access to all the past lives that i've had and this current soul is able to communicate with that bigger soul too (think about it like the 'severed' souls r the joey's and the big soul in control of each 'entity' is the mother kangaroo). kinda cool eh? 

Q74: if music is my therapy, then who's my therapist? 

kygo. like ik i say im a swiftie (and ppl call me that too) but i think nothing beats tropical house music. and kygo is the best at that, even if his recent albums have had a mix of electropop, prog house, edm in general. i think the melodies (and composition) r really easy on the ear, and the lyrics r also quite interesting even though it is generally the same theme about love and despair. 

- steve, who is suffering from stomachache right now but has softball carnival tmrw...

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

what happened in the first half of school in sem 3.2? (part 2 - socials)

-
in no particular order:  recre bball : i went once and never again. in my defence right, it was on tuesdays. on three tuesdays my corp sust product group wanted to have interviews with retailers, on one week mpsh was closed, and on one week it was cny. so i was only able to go once but skipped that one bcuz i was frankly a bit lazy AHAHHA. but the people there rly q competitive ngl...they all got exp and i was rly reminded of how unfit i was and how long i hadn't played basketball softball : wah the membership this sem drop A LOT SIA like 40%...idk why but lowk i think is cuz a lot of ppl grad and the open training was damn late? and also the payment felt later this year...idk ngl was also abit angst cuz trainings were only like once a week on average now instead of twice a week...but ig circumstances made it hard for that exco to have two trainings. ig its hard to accept but its smth that u have to swallow bcuz there isnt much alternative? i mean not that i blame the exco...its ju...
Read more

thurs, fri and sat

-
oops sorry stopped for two days because...i got really tired and had 4am football into a full day out with mala at night into today so...pardon the tardiness OKAY SO THURSDAY i think it was actly a p decent day started watching more league (again LOL) and also started to get back a BIT more into projects and work...i think there comes a point where i kinda have to start going to school to stay in the library tho...like i think with 1 case, 3 projects and 2 individual papers to complete over the next month i REALLY got to lock tf in so LIVE LAUGH LOVE (if i sound deranged i promise it isnt me im just hyping myself (and you! if u r reading) up to survive hell week wherever u may be reading from night class was kinda interesting so my prof (the french one who loves wine connection) had a guest speaker over to talk about warehousing and storage/transportation (essentially the focal point between middle mile and last mile) and wtf there's only roughly 5-10% of things in warehouses that...
Read more

i need to stop being so lazy.

-
bcuz this is so damn unhealthy grrr.... Q58: if I were told I only had 5 months to live, what would I do?  this is the kinda question u ask when u watch those emo movies like 'the fault in our stars'. and of course me being me i've dabbled in these thoughts before bcos u nvr know how things can change in the blink of an eye, at the snap of a couple fingers.  so i guess here they are:  1) go to old trafford (and allianz arena and/or signal iduna park on an actual matchday) 2) see the norway fjords 3) climb a mountain more than 1km tall 4) go to machu picchu 5) go see new zealand and australia 6) (if i haven't been to japan then) go to japan hopefully i can see the sakura 7) write letters to all my close friends 8) yknow the meme where they say "if i win the lottery, i won't say that i did it but there will be signs"? same for this i won't publicly say it but i'll be like matthew perry was and have all these cryptic messages that make it seem like so...
Read more