i fell asleep before i could upload last night

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and, missed game 4 of the cologne finals in cs2...sighs. (update: this was supposed to be uploaded for sunday, but i got really tired on monday so here it is on tuesday...)

q75:  do I hate who I am or what I've become? 

hmmm, i dont hate who i am (other than the fact that i think i could be less sentimental but i wouldnt want to become robocop), and i dont hate what i've become but i wish that i had been able to figure out what i want to do in life (i still don't), so that at least i have more time to myself)

q76: what trauma has caused me the most pain? 

all the times when i had low eq moments. not my proudest moments, but all part of the process #ibelieve

q77: why is it so hard to leave (assume it is for a person)? 

im too fking sentimental thats why. take it or leave it. if u leave me then u make me sad. if u stay then u kinda r forced by obligation of being a good fren to me and caring for me (or at least u care enuf to not just up and go without telling me why which is what a lot of people have done before)

- steve, just very tired today for some reason

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