Diary of an NPC (Needy Poor Creature)

all bcos my house is undergoing renovations...sighs Q68: Am I okay with receiving the bare minimum?  to me the bare minimum is just respect and empathy. and i am okay with it if it's just normal friends Q69: what's the one thing i regret not doing?  damn it. okay aside from all the 'i didnt ask my crush out' which has happened like 10 times (give or take), i think it is that i am not as extroverted as i hope to be in uni. which is a cause of why i feel like i have less (close) friends than i would like rn - steve, just tired. and hoping softball tmrw goes well..

bruh at this point i think work from home should be renamed to sleep at home LOL i mean even my mentor does it (he takes a long ass jb lunch break and continues working in a cafe in jb on his wfh days which is like practically 3/4 days a week) Q66: Who didn't show up when I thought they would?  okay technically there isn't anyone, but if i want to nitpick then it would be some (former) close friends who just drifted and i wanted to kinda ask them out for a meal to ask them why we drifted but they don't want to make time for me/are unable to make time for me. i just thought that our friendship had something more than a single grey tick, or a cold shoulder when i asked them for something. and whether i tell them i wanted to talk to them about smth important or not, they never said yes. and yes i have attachment issues so im just dealing with it forever.  Q67: What's one trait I look for in a partner?  HAHAH that's funny because i am like so fucking evergreen (maybe no...

ALSO IF ANYONE WANTS ME TO WRITE A FAN FICTION ABOUT THEM lmk im feeling my creative self again (that's why i am TRYING for like the 100,000th time to resume this blog consistently) Q64 (just reordering abit): what was the hardest thing i've done?  honestly just accepting that sometimes what you plan out won't always go your way - making frens, doing well in exams...there's always a curveball somewhere that will end up throwing u onto the shore like a piece of trash littered into the sea. the acceptance is always difficult because i always end up thinking "hmm what could i have done btr? if i did xx instead of aa would things have been btr than it is now? what if i had said zz instead of yy - would things be patched between me and this other person/group of persons?" i think there just comes a point in time when u have to accept that one's best laid plans don't always work out - it will never work out as u plan for it to. and because i think i am so se...

sorry for hiatus (did anyone even notice ha..)..so here are 3 questions q62: What's the last thought that occupied my mind before falling asleep?  like why is my work so busy recently? and also i realised that goodyear is a sinking ship...HAHAHAH not a good year! and like i realised that they actually teach interns nothing there like u r just an admin slave...thank god for my other intern who suggested we should like mix around with the other departments to get a better idea of what they do and how they are inter-related q63: who or what adds colour to my life?  when people sense that i am not okay and ask me (even if i am actually okay), or when i ask someone whether they can talk and people are there to listen, even if they r rly busy. i think it shows that people actually care about me and that i can rely on them (even if i still like to bottle up my emotions and write a journal entry like this or smth to just let my thoughts out, because i think my main sense of therapy is...