for 25th may - the day that man utd won the fa cup!

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i mean I AM SO ECSTATIC BCOS I LITERALLY CALLED THE WIN A WEEK AGO (lowkey it was in a state of delulu but i'll milk all the credit i can get). but anyways, back to the questions: 

Q56: when was a time you noticed someone's attitude or feelings changed towards you? 

maybe it's a sign to have less female friends, but i think this past sem i feel like there was a period of time when i was quite close to this girl, but throughout the sem i feel like i j got more detached from her bcos she is constantly trying to boost her portfolio and take internships and other side hustles. even during the sem, for some reason she j started growing more detached? yknow like those kind of one-word replies that lack emotion or just feel straight-up cold? yea those kind of texts when u ask them whr they r or what they r doing or why they nvr come class...idk it feels so different, like some ppl j get so wrapped up in their portfolio-chasing that they leave their friends by the way-side. and it's not that i need many people around me to survive, but rather it's that i cannot stand losing close friends bcos it makes me feel like i did smth wrong/am lacking in smth that makes them perceive me, transactionally, as less useful. which hurts. 

and that's why idk if it's bcos of smth i did/didn't do, or whether it is j bcos we have j gotten too busy (for our own good) and we end up not making enough time to care for each other like we used to

Q57: what is one thing that people assume about you? 

that im straight HAHAHAHA okay i mean obvs bcos who tf looks at someone and assumes they aren't straight-away unless their outfit or their facial features are heavily designed in such a way that screams lgbtq

other than that i think that ppl j assume that i can take so many unlimited unreplied texts. like im okay if the person does it occasionally, bcos obv we r all busy and sometimes we get caught up in our messages from friends/groupchats/work/random tele channels etc. and we just lose track of who we havent replied. but i think that when there comes a point when i have to constantly bump to get someone to reply especially if its smth urgent, i just feel so peeved. bcos for a generation that lives on our smartphones, the one thing we seem so inept at doing is replying messages

it's not just that we are becoming more 'awkward' in person bcos of social media, but we r also j less inclined to hang out w ppl even online? or, to maybe put it more eloquently, we r just more selective of who we want to be around than before? idk tbh. bcos ik ive blocked ppl idw to interact w anymore bcos i feel like they are making unwanted advances towards me. but this is plainly a friendship, sometimes a close one. and it just feels so annoying to put up with people who leave u single-ticked on tele and just...

- steve, still happy about the cup final win lets fucking go! 

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