5th April

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I hate bruno mars for not singing: 

count on me
lazy song
skate
smokin out the window
young girls
a full version of grenade
a full version of leave the door open

but he has 2 hrs not 3 so gotta deal w it. and anyways the instrumental solos were HELLA AWESOME i wish i could play those guitar riffs..

Q49: How long can I go without receiving a hug? 

I mean, tbh the last time i received a hug (not just shoulder hug, not that there's much difference in time) was almost a year ago after annual concert (I think...it might have been even before that in NS). But something feels off. Because I know I used to priortise physical touch as my main love language. But now words of affirmation and quality time have taken over. I know it's because I crave those two much more than before, but I don't know if physical touch declined also because I have gotten used to a lack of physical proximity with people (I MEAN, BEING EVERGREEN FOR 23 YEARS IS SOMETHING). 

And so, I know that I still want hugs, but I think it's not to the extent of how much I wished I wanted in the semesters before this. I think I still crave it, but I guess it's inappropriate for an attached person of the opposite gender to hug a friend, and even without the "attached" title I think singaporeans (or at least my friend groups) are just less..touchy. Which sucks because I think that giving hugs really helps to ease tensions and destress but maybe the person is also scared of just crying in public on the spot? 

I don't know. But I know the next time I receive a hug from someone, I will be very happy. 

- steve, can't say "when I was your man" because I never have been anyone's man

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