Piled up again lmao 27th-29th March

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Just taking some time off the projects to do this, because I'm pretty sure I won't be able to do over the wkend unless my adrenaline rush is insane or im unusually productive

Q38: If I wrote a book about my grandma, what would be the last line? 

"I miss your cooking". Let her cook. Lowkey unhealthy but it's nice. 

Q39: Who saved me when I was at my lowest? 

Honestly...I would say myself? As in I have had many periods of time when I was "low", and I had friends who would come and support me and offer me advice and I'm of course thankful for them and to them. But I think there's only so much they can do. What I decide to do with their advice, and with their support, is what would allow me to safe myself. I can't even think of my lowest point tbh...teenage insecurities, losing close friends, making some big mistakes that ruined friendships..I mean, nothing has really broke me to the extent where i am crying about it. The worst has always been just me moping about it by myself, talking to someone over text, and just trying to live with it.

But I guess the most recent would be my Exco experience? I mean I know that I wasn't always the most error-proof and sometimes there are mistakes in equipment, such as even during our own tournaments. In the end everything worked out well, but I guess I just placed an expectation on myself to do well and just be a contributive and valuable member to the team. But in the end I think that I let myself down, and also it was evident that there was at least one person displeased with my effort overall (second half of the year onwards). 

I mean, personally I think that it was really more of just a bias against me already because I already made an error before that? And honestly that person can be one to hold grudges and can be quite toxic if you catch that person in a bad mood and you do/say something even slightly stupid. But I guess because of that, and the fact that I made more mistakes subsequently, I kinda spiralled and just felt..dissociated for a period of time from the Exco. Even from those who were constantly nice to me (and genuine about it, which was like a majority). But yea, I wouldn't have gotten out of it if not for my own decisions. And tbf, fwiw it was my own decisions that led me there in the first place. 

Q40: Who is the only person I enjoy talking to? 

Honestly, I enjoy talking to a lot of people. There is no particular person cos I think that would be reserved for my crush, but rn there isn't one. 

- steve, who is wondering why these qns tdy are all so...deep??

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