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I MADE BRACELETS FOR MOTHER'S CONCERT LFGGG IM SO EXCITED SO LET'S RUN THRU THIS Q4&5: What song did I play when I was at my lowest & Who makes me feel bad about myself?

Song: Honestly I don't have a "go-to", it just depends on what I find catchy at that point in time. Something I find catchy this week could have released 6 years ago (Beach House by Chainsmokers) but I had never heard of it prior for whatever "frog-in-the-well" reason. But my fave artist (if I ever want to turn back to safe songs) is Kygo. It's just the vibes that are so chill and so melodious too. 

Who makes me feel bad about myself? Honestly I haven't felt this in a while, but sometimes when I feel bad about myself it is because someone is doing a similar task to me but in such a fashion that it outshines me and I feel that I am a letdown. Which is, of course, in no way the fault of that person, but it's just my inferiority complex that gets worked up, because I don't want to appear as a "useless/less useful" team member. And I guess sometimes that means that I go too hard on myself because I feel like I am not contributing enough, when in reality there is just that one hard carry. I think that I haven't actually run into people in uni who intentionally made me feel bad about myself, but any instance of such a thing would just be the consequence of someone putting in a stellar performance, so credit where credit is due. 

- steve, thinking about seeing mother in about 16hrs. 

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