Diary of an NPC (Needy Poor Creature)

honestly been thinking how i wanted to write the first 12 days of 2025. i would do the normal 'dive into everyday' style but there's many things that have been spilled in silence should not see the light of day. or at least, not from me. a lot of these 12 days (most of it in fact) was me just meeting with people and just relishing the moments of being youthful.  i feel like a lot of the past 12 days has just been me doing three things: watching basketball/football, playing games, and going out with friends. and trying not to sleep at 4am (which, as u can tell by the timing at which this is posted, definitely did not work and school is in session again so im kinda fked?) but there's a part of me that really enjoys the moments sitting with people, or across an individual person, and just creating shared moments that hopefully add more meaning into our lives. i think there's so much struggle to find what really makes us useful and contribute to the people around us, bu...

i had multiple different ideas bouncing off my head on how i wanted to do this but i just decided to stick with the blog entry because i didn't want to go through essentially the same thing on my instagram again (will save that for the concert-recaps and stuff...read as concert dump if u like LOL) 2024 has been wild. i think i finally found what i was looking for the entirety of 2023 - solid groupS of friends. i feel like before 2024 began i never really had a solid group of friends to lean on - it was always a mix of individuals from here and there that i would go out with or study with. and i never really felt connected to any group. don't get me wrong: softball exco was great. but i think the initial excitement died out after people started to disappear from cca and there was some tension within the exco and also people got very busy with their other commitments in school, and outside of school. and being in two orientations in 2023 wasn't the most fun time because i had...

week of 22nd december to the end of december - ngl i was abit annoyed at first that a mahjong session at my place was cancelled bcos someone last min cmi...but i think that it was a blessing in disguise ngl. bcuz the day before this (21st december) the fking FAS decided to announce that the tickets for the aff cup semis was only to be sold in person and so i had to go down and queue on sunday morning (and i knew that if i had mahjong that day i would not have been able to make it). so i did end up going down on sunday morning to wait in the queue of throngs of people and there was an insane amount of people in the queue even though i went like half an hour earlier (which was delayed bcos of sussy stomach syndrome once again). and i kinda knew from the start that my position in the queue was okay but a little bit precarious after doing some brainy maths of how many people would be ahead of me in the queue (which i calculated roughly to be about 1200 people in front of me..i think in the...