Diary of an NPC (Needy Poor Creature)

okay and im still keeping my promise yay.  q61: what is my biggest pet peeve?  when people sign up for something but dont commit to it - like what's the point? u let the team down, and u make everyone disappointed and fed up w u. maybe u dont feel like u r a mess up because u r vv dense, but yea.  case in point - when u sign up for exco, u best well do ur job. or at least try ur damnest to do it. if u r still unable to do it but u tried ur best im happy w it. but if u go in give a half fuck standard, submit work late/past the deadline, is always bossing people around etc., then u r just creating a toxic work environment. maybe u can appeal to ppl using ur xmm looks or ur prince charming rizz, but when ppl realise who u rly r, the sky falls harder than ur heart will break during a breakup.  idw to go into the nitty gritty, but yes i've seen my fair share of exco ppl not doing their shit properly AND not trying. ik that when i was in exco sometimes i fucked up but at l...

and maybe this is so i minimise my post concert PERFORMER depression because i can feel it hitting.  Q59: What made me smile today?  I think it's the simple fact that I have not had to worry about performing in smuco and wondering whether i can come in on time or play my notes cleanly because my foundations are weak since i never had proper guidance. admittedly the longer i get from d-day the more i will wonder about where i went wrong and what could have been done btr in terms of my execution of each of the 7 pieces. and that's a common refrain but i think it'll be fine Q60: What is the worst memory I have?  I did not anticipate this contrast in questions but...I think there are a lot of contenders. There is no one main one because I have not been through a relationship breakup, and I haven't had to deal with depression or suicidal thoughts and I lost 3 of my 4 grandparents when I was in preschool (or earlier). If I have to take one from my memory bank (and try to mini...