present mind
something a lil different today... one thing i realised a lot over the first half of this year is that u cannot take anything for granted. and perhaps this is something that is widely known? but in the comfort of someone/something, sometimes that knowledge just recesses itself in the subconscience. and i feel that in those moments, u start to take something as a given. its not really about discrediting a thing's meaning or value, but rather just thinking that it will always be there but life is short. one blink and suddenly u r 35. one skip on spotify and suddenly u realise 40mins instead of 4mins have passed. u realise that the leaves have fallen after a week of passing by the same spot on the bus, but u arent really sure when it fell. was it yesterday? or the day before? or right after u first saw that tree and took it for granted that it would always be there? every dinner starts to feel like a chore. every moment at work starts to feel like a burden. every interaction feels so...